Endless musings

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As I sit here to pen down some of my experiences on this never ending journey call Life I suddenly feel nothing but emptiness around me.All these years that I have spent walking on this planet suddenly feel lost in a cloud of haze.All I can remember is each day starts with me getting ready for the struggle/battle ahead.The endless hours of work , staring at the green screens all day long, grabbing a quick lunch,attending long and boring meetings,coming back from office , having dinner and sleeping to continue the same routine the next day and for all the days to come. Am I in a state of panic or is this what each of us faces everyday?
Is this what I have dreamt for myself when I used to prepare myself during childhood for a secure future ahead.Is this what a secure future is all about?When have I lost all my dreams?

I generally don't think much about inspirational stuff.. but this this something I really liked....It helped me get over my above depressing mood.

by E LIZ a beth

Ripped and taped up feelings
for things we just cant face
fallen but not yet broken
are the memories we cant erase

lost but not forgotten
are the places we used to stay
gone but not forever
is tomorrow's yesterday

but time is moving slowly
and I'm trapped behind closed doors
i don't want to remember
anything from before

i feel like Ive betrayed you
because i want to leave this place
and somehow staying here
is just too much for me to take

so heres your static lullaby
heres your empty heart
im letting go of everything
that's made me fall apart

this is my silent goodbye
i bid my memories adieu
cause I'm better off happy
somewhere i cant remember you

ripped and torn up feelings
are the things that we face
fallen chipped and broken
are the memories we erase

lost and now forgotten
are the places we used to stay
gone right now forever
are memories of yesterday


Frankly speaking the above poem which I came across when surfing the net has really given me motivation to go ahead and stop musing and getting depressed on what I have already lost but what I can still gain....

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